the healing of forgiveness..

-im telling her..she doesn't understand that Im ok.. this wont kill me, it just..really hurts -i still didn't really believe she was sorry, as i tucked my head inward, closing my eyes tight as i made the cut worse-

-still sorry for what i did, helplessly trying to help him if he won't even except my offer-

-she still didnt get that nothing will get any better, i just told her to let my stomach bleed and get worse, since there was nothing else to do about it-

- i told him as he was in pain, just another way to help, but just becuase i could let it get worse, faster...-

-that whole thing she said made me nervous, sweat trickled down my head, I wasn't suffering that much butpp

-I kindly said, in a way for it to get worse in his way, still being sorry for what i did, but furious in the inside for trying to kill me-